One More Eulogy

Dear Sushant Singh Rajput,

When I heard the shocking news about your demise I felt nothing. I was numb. I could not wrap my head around it. And now that it’s been a couple of days since the incident, I still don’t understand or know what to feel. But I have come to terms with the fact that you decided that your time had come. And in the face of death, the dauntless rejoice and celebrate bravery.

It somehow feels like a big elaborate prank and I feel like you will soon come out of your hiding and announce that was the plan after all. To start a conversation. To get people aware and talking. Or not. Probably you just wanted to end your glittery, toxic B-town life and all the nuisance that comes with the gossip. So my heart wanders away thinking you are still alive and fled this toxic life to live somewhere far away. Then I realise that is exactly what you did.

But you have left behind a great example of intellect and glory. And sometimes the big dreams dreamed on the small city pillows do come true. And I learnt in your death the life you lived. I learnt of your dreams and aspirations and that has made me come closer to your spirit. In death, you left behind a legacy of dreams that need tending, that it is brave to dream and better to live it. As the world grieves your loss, I celebrate that spirit. I celebrate freedom and peace, at last. Thank you for touching so many hearts and transforming them.

– A fan.